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| In the end, we will not remember the words of our enemies, but we will remember the silence of our friends... | | |
| What do I want? What is my focus? These questions bother me everyday. Recently I realized that for the longest time I have been walking around aimlessly. This has led to a poorer performance in school and in general. I need to establish what I want and start to focus on it. The past can not be erased or forgotten and at the same time nothing can be done to fix mistakes made in the past. There will always be regrets unless there is a chance to redeem for past failures. In certain aspects of life, there is no chance for redemption, at least for now and maybe never. But there are other things in my control. I think I need to stop living in the future and in the past. It is time to focus on the present. Maybe I do not have everything I want in the present, but at least I can finally begin to work towards something, anything. I do not want to continue an odyssey which only leads to the abyss of despair. Although I do not see it yet, I am making small steps towards progress and a future which will ultimately be disconnected from the warm memories of the past... | | |
| A doctor never lets his patients down...I learned a very valuable lesson today. I have to work harder and be more strict on my school schedule, whether it is working or attending classes. Life only comes around once and can't let these moments just pass by.
If I were to meet you again in my life MCD, I would sing you this song because it perfectly summarizes my feelings and puts them into words.
Do You Remember-Jay Sean
So long since you've been missing
It's good to see you again
How you how you doing
And how about we don't let this happen again
There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Jay Sean Do You Remember
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time let's make new memories
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back!)
Yo ay girl yo bring it back to the time when you and me had just begun
When I was still your number one
Well it might seem far-fetched baby girl but it can't be done
I've got this feeling fire blazing and it's hot just like the sun
Know you feel it too my girl just freeze up may the good vibes run ...
Girl take a sip of the champange take a lil trip down my lane my girl
While you noe every night you'll feel alright look I tell you dis girl atta My world
Dont change imma na Rearange Ay girl imma tell you straight dis atta my world
How many years do you want come kiss dis I know you miss this
That's what I heard that's what I heard that's what I heard word girl
There's nothing left to say
Don't waste another day
Just you and me tonight
Everything will be okay
If it's alright with you then it's alright with me
Baby let's take this time let's make new memories
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Do you remember do you remember do you remember
All of the times we had
Let's bring it back (Let's bring it back)
Let's bring it back (Bring it back)
Let's bring it back (Let's bring it back)
Let's bring it back (Oh)
Let's bring it back | | |
| I have realized that over the years I think less and less about philosophical issues and about life. All I feel now is a rage that I hide from the world. Soon the inner rage will just consume me... | | |
| "Sometimes you are destined to fail, but there is always a choice. Never give up and fight bravely until the end."
I think the end may finally be here. Not sure what to make of it all. All seems a bit overwhelming but at the same time I do not regret it. When I first laid eyes on you in 2004, you were with your boyfriend. Even today you are with your boyfriend. Yet I do not believe this is the end and I firmly believe we did not go through everything we did for this pathetic and weak ending. The true ending is yet to come. I will prepare myself for the real ending to this story. Life is still wide open and we are at a crossroads for now. Our paths shall cross again soon and if not soon then one day our paths will cross again. We may not recognize each other any longer or be the same people, but we can think back to the foolish and naive kids who were madly in love for the better part of their teenage lives. I guess this year I have crossed into adulthood, yet I cling to the past and the beliefs I had as a child. Hopefully one day I will find out the answer to all my questions and get a real conclusion with you.
Until then, I know what I have to do. There are no second chances in life. I have been given so many chances and opportunities. Come next Friday, I have to complete the birth and announce I am back. There is no way I will let this opportunity pass. I just need to erase the lingering self doubt and complete my revival and rebirth. | | |
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